Assalamualaikum...

Here again, its me, its 12.44pm and I have a lot of things going on inside my mind. I am so miserable right now, that I cant even write down any title.

Ya Allah, why I have no control over myself, why does everything around me effects me so much, Why do i feel sad, an extreme sadness. I am so broken, knowing that I wasnt able to calm myself down. I wanted to cry so much, but I'm afraid that if I cry, the old things will happen again to me. Ya Allah... I am clueless.....