Womanly ahakk

Hi Hi Hi and Hi!

Hahaha, my mood today incredibly awesome! Senyum, gelak all day long! mana taknya, hari ni spend half day with kiddos yang sangat comel and suka lari lari, best kot.. Oh sebenarnya tu bukanlah point yang sebenarnya..

Sebenarnya, this post is more about my feeling, this year suddenly there's a few guys yang attract minat aku, haha, few okeh bukan sorang, nyampah betul bila tersuka reramai ni, haha.. bila nampak sorang, excited, nampak lagi sorang, terpegun, nampak lagi sorang berdegup jantung, kalau everyday macam ni fengsan la! hahahaha, okay lupakan benda tu, sebab memang lumrah alam kita suka orang so nak malu buat apa? hahak..

Since aku dah 17 this year and masuk tahun ke-17 jugaklah aku tak pernah ada partner yang kononnya amik berat pasal aku 24-hours, jaga makan puii, takde takde, reaaly not me wokay!

Cause, i'm that kind of girl yang looking forward for a long lasting relationship, which is yang halal, kita tengok muka dia pahala, kita sayang dia pahala, hahaha kahwin la kan jawapannya, so that's why i choose to stay single till today. tipulah takde perasaan nak loving loving ke macam mana, tapi tahan jela, kalau kita bagitahu orang tu kita suka dia, sayang dia, 'cinta' dia, paling kuat pun boleh couple, pastu kang tetiba break mana pergi sayang cinta kasih kau tadi? lari? hahaha, tu yang aku taknak tu... dahlah dapat dosa, hati tercedara, seksanyaa....

Tapi.. cane kalau aku tetiba mati tak sempat nak kahwin? hahaha, lupa ke, kan Allah cakap, gadis gadis yang belum berkahwin akan dikahwinkan kat dalam syurga nanti, nampak tak sweet kat situ? hahaha.. berangan kejap..

Oh ya, i always wanted to tell any guy yang ada feeling towards aku to stop layan perasaan tu sekejap, or if can, korang fikirlah balik, betul ke perasaan tu or just for a moment? nak ajak aku couple memang taklah, even hati aku kata nak, but aku takkan terima.. yela, i dont have much knowledge about life, masak pun belajar lagi, nak kemas rumah pun kena tunggu parents suruh, nak buat ini buat itu lagi, really not ready.. so that's why aku post kat instagram tu gambar atas tu hehehehee, kbye

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Hi!

This is the second week where I didn't get enough sleep, I only slept for one or 2 hours per night and the next day, I'll feel exhausted and sleepy, jeez.. To be honest, i don't like this routine, I knew that this will affect my health and my mood for sure. But as a 'good' and 'responsible' student, I have to finish my homeworks and make some revision before the teacher teach that subject...


From the early of February, I have such a bad and unpredictable mood swing, where I dont even know why and how does that happen.BUT, I think it's all happen due to lack of rest. Haha i already talk about this before, and I keep on telling about this problem. Whatevah, I knew that I'm not that genius, I have to make an extra effort to get what I want, to fulfill my parent's dream. I'm just hoping that all my scarification will get paid later, if not in SPM, maybe in my future, or it could be for the hereafter, who knows right? Always trust that all your good deeds will get paid from Him. Oh ya, i just got friend-so-called-as-enemy who accompany me to do my homework at night. Thanks dude. Even you always fall asleep before completing your homework, hahahaha..


Hmm I'm a lil bit emotional right now, huhuhu, and I feel like I want to have a shower now, and cry as much as I want. I'm not good in sharing my problems with others, that's why i use this medium to let everything out, but this doesn't mean that I can 'kutuk', bash or gossip about other people. Hello, very the not me okeh, I have my own internet ethics that I have to obey k, hahahaha...


I may look like I'm tough because of my boyish personality, but I'm still a girl, I have feeling, my mood will swing anytime without any warning, I feel hurt about those little things. This thing, I can't deny it, even i already told to myself that I'm not that kind of girl that bla bla bla, but like I said, I'm still a girl, there must be something that distract me. Oh jakun gilanya ayat, huru haranya well that's girl, tak perempuan la kan tak gedik tak hara. Cis I hate it when this come...


I'm tired of people leaving me, I'm not that strong to handle that. People be friend with me with some secret reason is my biggest fear. But i know that I can do nothing about it, just follow the flow, play the game, BAM, when the ending come, just accept it, hahahaha, what a good life.