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Hi!

This is the second week where I didn't get enough sleep, I only slept for one or 2 hours per night and the next day, I'll feel exhausted and sleepy, jeez.. To be honest, i don't like this routine, I knew that this will affect my health and my mood for sure. But as a 'good' and 'responsible' student, I have to finish my homeworks and make some revision before the teacher teach that subject...


From the early of February, I have such a bad and unpredictable mood swing, where I dont even know why and how does that happen.BUT, I think it's all happen due to lack of rest. Haha i already talk about this before, and I keep on telling about this problem. Whatevah, I knew that I'm not that genius, I have to make an extra effort to get what I want, to fulfill my parent's dream. I'm just hoping that all my scarification will get paid later, if not in SPM, maybe in my future, or it could be for the hereafter, who knows right? Always trust that all your good deeds will get paid from Him. Oh ya, i just got friend-so-called-as-enemy who accompany me to do my homework at night. Thanks dude. Even you always fall asleep before completing your homework, hahahaha..


Hmm I'm a lil bit emotional right now, huhuhu, and I feel like I want to have a shower now, and cry as much as I want. I'm not good in sharing my problems with others, that's why i use this medium to let everything out, but this doesn't mean that I can 'kutuk', bash or gossip about other people. Hello, very the not me okeh, I have my own internet ethics that I have to obey k, hahahaha...


I may look like I'm tough because of my boyish personality, but I'm still a girl, I have feeling, my mood will swing anytime without any warning, I feel hurt about those little things. This thing, I can't deny it, even i already told to myself that I'm not that kind of girl that bla bla bla, but like I said, I'm still a girl, there must be something that distract me. Oh jakun gilanya ayat, huru haranya well that's girl, tak perempuan la kan tak gedik tak hara. Cis I hate it when this come...


I'm tired of people leaving me, I'm not that strong to handle that. People be friend with me with some secret reason is my biggest fear. But i know that I can do nothing about it, just follow the flow, play the game, BAM, when the ending come, just accept it, hahahaha, what a good life.