I've posted something two days ago, a video about parents, ohh yaa, I have plenty of vids to share with you guys, just keep on following my blog! hehe..
Last night, I had a heartbroken, and to be honest, I cried so hard like there will be no tomorrow cause i feel so sad and hating myself because of that feeling, it turn me like that. MasyaAllah, I'm so shame towards Allah but I just can't resist it, I really cant.
Love, is a nature, that Allah put in every soul that he made. We have desire, and that desire can destroy us, I'm hoping that Allah will keep us away from all those bad things happening, inshaAllah.. But I'm just a girl, who's trying to discover this planet earth, who still need her parents to guide her to the right path, still can't resist that desire and that love feeling. MashaAllah, I'm still a student, huwaaaaa
It's lie if I say that I never want be in a relationship like others, my friend also have someone special to talk to everyday, someone who'll take care about her like 24/7, but me, yep still fighting and denying all my feelings. why did i did that? why? am i pushing all the fitrah away? No i'm not, all I think and I want is, I want to achieve that one and only thing that i dreamed for a long time, which is getting Allah's love first. I've wasted my 16 years before doing unnecessary things, when I get into secondary school, I was so busy finding the perfect guy to be my perfect prince charming. duh what am i thinking before? am i having a day dreaming? looking for something that is not real, Allahu you can see that I was busy doing other things, and I was like putting Allah at the second place, and that thing should never happened before.. Allah please forgive me..
But Alhamdulillah, those things really change my thought and the way I am thinking now, u may see me as a playful girl, that never have problems, who just keep on smiling without any reason. But I have figured out one thing about myself, yeayy! hihi
I am not pretty, I am not like the other girls who have such a charming and lovely personalities that can attract others attention and make you fall in love with them just by looking at them, mashAllah, they're so lucky :) I know that I am not like that, so I have to be different. Not to attract other's attention, I just want people to be comfortable every time they're talking to me. And i have to prepare myself for that righteous, hehe..
She must be educated. She must know about her deen. She must be the girl that obey Allah's law.
If she is beautiful, know how to cook, that's a bonus for you, duhhh, it's not easy to be that kind of woman, or it's not easy too for you to find this kind of woman. harhar
After watching all of this videos, I know how valuable I am as a girl, that Allah has made full with amazing things that I can't even imagine. Allahuakbar, he is the greatest. Come, spread the love, spread Allah's word and be the one who always remember him, inshaAllah. Assalamualaikum :)
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